Daniel, my donor.
Well, Thanksgiving is over, thank god. I love my family. I do, but it was a little hectic and not much of a relaxing holiday all in all. My parents stay in our guest bedroom, and there is no such thing as sleeping in when they are here. So right now J. and I are sitting here, minds in a semi-vegetative state wondering where all the "vacation" went.
Thank you for your comments re: the BFN. Your support is much appreciated. The whole testing process on Thanksgiving was interesting. The HPT delivered the news in the morning. We weren't sure it was a definitive no. Then while eating the turkey dinner that afternoon, I felt like I was socked in the stomach with a brass-knuckled fist which sent me to the bathroom in a cold sweat. In the middle of the meal. Not my typical period cramping, usually my spotting day is cramp free, then I get full on cramps with the full on flow the next day. Not so this round, the prelude to spotting was a hulk-sized punch to the uterus. I will leave out other sordid details. And I really had the worst round of cramps on Friday, ever. Perhaps mother nature twisting the knife for fun and games.
Anyway, we are trying to decide whether to try this month or skip it. I am already stressing about work (woke up this morning totally sick to my stomach that tomorrow the hell will begin). J. is going to NYC in the middle of the month and I don't know when the hell O day will be this time around. And I just don't know if I am up for the guessing game as to when to ship the swimmers.
We have a first appointment with a RE on Dec. 5. So perhaps we will discuss it with him (ahem, its a him! I am already breaking my own rules). If we can have the swimmers shipped to the clinic directly (like 6 or so vials to cut down on shipping), maybe we can play it by ear this month. Its hard to skip, but maybe given the holidays and work stuff, maybe its for the best.
But I have a feeling as we get further along in our cycle, it will be harder to sit this one out.
We showed my mother a baby picture of our donor and let her listen to the audio clip. She announced that we should call him and have a drink or two with him, just to look him in the eye. I tried to explain to her several times that we are sort of paying a premium to not have that type of involvement with him, but we are not sure she really gets it. The next day she started referring to the donor as Daniel for no apparent reason. Maybe she is psychic. More likely, just crazy. But we think the name has to stick.
Thank you for your comments re: the BFN. Your support is much appreciated. The whole testing process on Thanksgiving was interesting. The HPT delivered the news in the morning. We weren't sure it was a definitive no. Then while eating the turkey dinner that afternoon, I felt like I was socked in the stomach with a brass-knuckled fist which sent me to the bathroom in a cold sweat. In the middle of the meal. Not my typical period cramping, usually my spotting day is cramp free, then I get full on cramps with the full on flow the next day. Not so this round, the prelude to spotting was a hulk-sized punch to the uterus. I will leave out other sordid details. And I really had the worst round of cramps on Friday, ever. Perhaps mother nature twisting the knife for fun and games.
Anyway, we are trying to decide whether to try this month or skip it. I am already stressing about work (woke up this morning totally sick to my stomach that tomorrow the hell will begin). J. is going to NYC in the middle of the month and I don't know when the hell O day will be this time around. And I just don't know if I am up for the guessing game as to when to ship the swimmers.
We have a first appointment with a RE on Dec. 5. So perhaps we will discuss it with him (ahem, its a him! I am already breaking my own rules). If we can have the swimmers shipped to the clinic directly (like 6 or so vials to cut down on shipping), maybe we can play it by ear this month. Its hard to skip, but maybe given the holidays and work stuff, maybe its for the best.
But I have a feeling as we get further along in our cycle, it will be harder to sit this one out.
We showed my mother a baby picture of our donor and let her listen to the audio clip. She announced that we should call him and have a drink or two with him, just to look him in the eye. I tried to explain to her several times that we are sort of paying a premium to not have that type of involvement with him, but we are not sure she really gets it. The next day she started referring to the donor as Daniel for no apparent reason. Maybe she is psychic. More likely, just crazy. But we think the name has to stick.
posted by Grrlscout at 2:05 PM
5 Comments:
No one can tell you what's best for you and yours but giving the unsolicited opinion- if things aren't too insane I wouldn't skip a month...when we were getting pg the first time around I was a royal, raving bitch if we had to sit out a month...I just felt better plugging along, continuing to try...but that's just us!
Hey, sorry to read that you got a negative. I've had a problem with your RSS feed and just caught up on about 8 posts that I didn't know you'd made. November was a sucky, crappy month for everyone so it seems - not one bloody positive!
That's funny that your mom named your donor.
As far as sitting out this cycle, I think it's really okay to give yourself permission to do that if you want to/need to. December is a crazy month, indeed. And TTC is so energy zapping. I was tempted to take December off, but I decided that personally, I just couldn't. So, really, you just need to decide what's right for you.
There is something whack with my RSS! How in the hell do I fix it?
No - I think the problem was with Bloglines - sorry - it happened to a couple of blogs whose RSS I subscribe to - nothing for a week or so, then several post appearing on my blogroll. Odd, but I don't think the problem is with you!
Seems to be working ok now.
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